Daniel Peter Green

my son daniel wasnt with me very long as i never new i was pregnant and it was a very big shock to find out i was as i had the coil fitted so that i wouldnt have any more children after my first two.
i had my tonsils out in the september and i started to get really bad cramps in my tummy and i just put it down to the tablets that i was on and never thought i would be pregnant any way the weeks went by and then i was in so much pain that i had to call my mum and dad so they could take the children to school as i didnt want them to see me like this and didnt want them to miss school so they did and then i went to the doctors as the pain had been going on for a while now
so at the doctors they felt my tummy and asked if there was a chance that i was pregnant and i just said know there isnt as i had the coil fitted so my doctor said we will run some test and a pregnancy test even though you dont think you are so to me that was fine and thought nothing of it so the monday i phoned up for my results and the receiptist told me congratulations your pregnant and my life changed in seconds and i just started crying as i couldnt believe what i was hearing and i had to tell my husband too and i didnt know what to do but i did know one thing i couldnt get rid of my baby as i had made this baby and it wasnt there fault
so i had a appointment to see the doctor who made an appoinment for me to go and have a scan to find out how far gone i was and then go from there.
when i found out i was pregnant all of a surdern i started to feel my baby move for the first time and before i just put it done to rummbering tummy or having a stich nothing else but it felt nice and thats when i know i had to be further gone than we thought
at the scan on the wednesday i think or thursday i was called in for my scan and they said i here you have a coil and that i had just found out ect ect and then they started to scan me and that is when i saw him for the first time and he started to kick and the lady who was doing the scan just went oh my god you have a big baby her screen was too small to see the whole baby but she went through to see if she could see the coil which they could and she said it looks like the baby is holding it and she carryed on to make sure that everything was fine and it was and the baby was about 21 or 22 weeks but not sure
then she told my husband and i to go and see the clinic so they could see the baby on there screen so we went down to the baby and mother clinic and there nurse on there was soo rude and she said you havent got appointment you will have to go back to your gp and get them to send you in we tried to explain that we got told to come to them from another ward and she was having none of it so we left and went back to my doctors to fined out and saw a midwife and everything was fine and she said she would try and get another scan as soon as possible
well that evening i started doing dinner when i started to lose some of my waters and thought i still got to go to karate as i had a club but i managed to get my brother to take the lesson he wasnt happy on taken it but he had to and i still took my son to train mikey and then after the lesson i drove to my mum and dad as i started to really hurt again and thought they where closer and then while i was there the oain started to get even worse so we phoned my husband and the hospital and went straight there while my mum and dad looked after the kids and they examened me and said that i was fine to go home but i had to rest and phone if any change
so my husband took me back to my mum and dads as thats where the kids where and they still needed to go to school the next day and my husband to work so thought if anything happened i was think someone who could look after me so i went to bed and tried to get some sleep
i tossed and turned and got up a few time to go to the toilet and then i did fall asleep with my eldest boy in my arms and when i woke the next day i had to call my mum in as i had started to bleed well alot and my little girl thought that mikey had wet the bed but it wasnt it was me i new now that i was going to lose my baby
but i had to be strong as i had mikey and stephie so i got my mum to take them to school and then i phone the hosiptal and they told me to come in which i did and they got me into a side room at the hospital and then i went for a scan and your dad turned up as i was getting taken into the room and we saw you and your nanny on the screen kicking and trying so hard to tell everyone that you wanted to be with us but the doctor told your daddy and me that you might be born with brain damage because i lost a bit of my waters and that we had to make our minds up if we wanted to try and save you but in my heart i new that i had to give you every chance that i could do for you as you where my little buddle of hope and joy.
the doctor let daddy and mummy to make there minds up but i couldnt do it and we stayed in hospital that night and all i did was cry as how could i let you go just like that but i decision was taken out of my hands as your daddy slept i went to the toilet as i was getting a bit uncomfortable and then i had this filling that i had to push and i new i couldnt stop it even though i tried so hard not to so i could for help by pressing the buzzer and a nurse came in and helped me back to bed andyour daddy work up and then i new you was coming you tried so hard to stay with us i could fill you kicking inside me right up to the time you was born
you was born saturday 2nd december at 5.50am and you was 22 weeks old so you was sooo small but you had big legs and you looked like your brother mikey but you where so small